Why am I Here?

Why am I here?


This is a small question with a big meaning. Martin Heidegger said that “some things are obscured by obviousness”, and look like this question is one of them. If I try to answer that question in a biology meaning, I can answer as “I am here because one day my parents by pleasure, or because they wanted another child conceived me.” However, that answer will finish just there, and won’t really go to the real meaning of my life. That small answer opens another question “How to live?” I am catholic, so I try to answer this question on a religion’s meaning. The answer that I got was “The roads of God are mysterious. Don’t try to understand then, just live on the best way possible, and always be ready for when God calls.” After think and without offence anyone or questioned my faith, I looked that answer as little bit empty. Yes, I will be ready to when God call me, and try to do what is good for me, for my family, and my friends. However, what will I do until God calls me?

At that point I was just stuck. I didn’t really answer the question, I just evaded it. I was probably asking the wrong question, or my mind was thinking on others thinks. Look like I am the kind of person that just accept the problems without question them. However, my friends told me that it is not truth, I am one of the people that questioned everything more that ones, and they are right.

This will probably looks like a strategic withdrawal, but I am just trying to answer this question on anther perspective. After re-read the first paragraph, I decided to answer the question “How to live?” This question looks easier to answer probably because I am the one who decided the way of live my life, or because I already have lived part of that answer. Advertence, this way of live is not the final one, but it is the one that I am using now.

I decided to move to USA, let on the past my friends, my life style, and in the process spend two whole years just learning English. The principle of equivalent trade in alchemist is simple, “in order to get something, you should sacrifice something of the equal value”. I sacrificed my old life in order to get a new one. On this new life, I will study hard. I will become a Mechanical Engineer and help the humanity to break the dependence of the petroleum. That will help the environment, and will help to create a better world for everyone. That is my dream, a dream that I need to create doing my best, especially on the college and university.

The life is not just work, is also share that is why I also try to become a better friend, and person. I am... well that is just another story.